Carrying myself home in the best possible way hihi :)

 

Yesterday 😛 , it was an interesting day that separated themselves a bit from the other days when it does not occur so often. But I know myself so well that I can quickly read and analyze what I need to do. I was a bit ill yesterday for those who do not know how I work. But this is recurring every month. Now think that it is your period but it is not entirely wrong to think so. We like to think that your period will be the 20 no weirdness at all. I have errors on my thyroid and take medicine for it and it works great. But should I have my period around the 20 so starts my body to complicate already the 13. It has become much worse in recent years, and it’s like my hormones get the free spin and that the medicine does not help as it should a week before your period. When my medication does not help, so it goes on me, both physically and mentally, and I become even more tired than usual. I will of course check this with my doctor. These symptoms usually come one step at the time so Iam  able to know when the fatigue will gradually. What happened yesterday was like someone pressed a button. So there I sat at work in the couch and my bodily defense mechanisms shuts down me to gather new energy. It is a little easier for me if stuff like this happens when you are at home then there will be less work for me to gather new energy. But I’m stubborn and have no problem with carrying  myself home in the best possible way. It is just to be firm and clear with myself and take myself home 😛 

You who know me know that I have so much self irony and humor that I think this is terribly funny at the same time as I, of course, will hear of me to a doctor.  Iam and work as I do and most people know that I am doing what I can according to my capacity. My capabilities may differ tremendously from day-to-day, and then it is so. Sometimes it is like I get into an involuntary hibernation, but I know that I need it to do on other days. There are many factors that made that I knew yesterday, now so. But the biggest sign was that I went from being very keen to feel that I would be able to fall asleep and I was on my way to do it if I had put me down. 

I can never make as straight of which I have had sleeping problems for about 15 years. Falling asleep in the middle of the day in addition to after lot of coffee. Easy-to-read myself there. I open with this because I think it is important to spread the message that despite the fact that we are who we are, and suffer what we have, we are Amazing.

Important to accept yourself and surround yourself by people who understand. Sometimes, it can’t get other people to understand and then it is important that you know how you work and that you accept yourself.

Today as mixed/mastered it with my next song in the studio and I am preparing to soon let you hear 🙂 .

A thousand Thanks to those of you who follow me on my Music Journey :

Take Care Of Yourself and Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl
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My 13 songs will soon become 14  :-P

Now I have finished the cover of my next song. It is a song that I have written in Swedish and it will be released in the nearest time. Feels so funny that I received the order on it for sometimes it goes easier and other times it takes a little longer. It depends a bit on how I want it. I am excited and happy to soon share with you another song that I have made. 
My 13 songs will soon become 14  😛 : 

It feels absolutely amazing to do music and there will be more songs from me in the future. Now I’m going to continue to work here  😛 

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Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Satsumas and Work :)

It has been very exciting activities that we have been on now for the whole weekend. I have very much to work with regarding my blog and my music but will work on it as I can today. Need to rest for any day before to collect the energy. This is to be able to continue to do what I want. I have soon one of my next songs finished in the musicstudio so it feels really fun 😛 

Today, I am happy that my beloved SATSUMAS have arrived. It is really my favorites and I have bought a lot. Need to get me some extra vitamins right now.
I’ll also continue to do the finished cover of my next song. It is not so much left to do  😛 
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Wrote the lyrics to my new songs :)

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Yesterday I had a real good day I sat and wrote the lyrics to my new songs. 
Worked with them almost all the way until midnight so it was very much done. I have so much that I want to make my music, and there are many songs that I sit and work with. What I also do is to structure up the songs a bit so I get some kind of order on them. Parts up what is clear in the text and what I need to work more on.

It feels fantastic to have finally begun with the songs that I’m working with now and I have started to get good order on them. To be able to sit down and have the focus that I had yesterday is nothing that I can determine that I should have. It just comes and then it is just to fit in. Once I have started it becomes easier. Before, it is just a bunch of paper with texts  😛 

I have one of my next songs in the studio which will be released when it is ready. A thousand thanks to all of you who listen to my music : 

Today so I will soon go to my other work, which feels great. So now I sit and drink coffee to wake up a bit. Should also work tomorrow so it will be home and sleep after work today. 

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Many Hugs From MinikeGirl  😛 

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I is also for me a mystery which I find very interesting and I love to be me.

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Played out my 14 song yesterday 😛  .It was really fun and there is always a new challenge for me. I never know how my senses are the days that I shall record but it has gone well so far. Sometimes I have good focus and other times it takes a little longer for me to get it as I want it. But it is enough for most people. So it is with creativity and there is nothing that can completely control. Sometimes it will fully automatically, and sometimes it takes a little bit longer. Some days I can write a lot of music.

Other days, it can’t write a line of text. But that is the way it is and I like that it is so. I have very many thoughts about a lot and I have a good imagination. It helps me when I write my music and work is not a thing, then I try something else. I have an internal strong performance anxiety where I know how I want it to be. I struggle all the time to achieve the achievement that I have fixed. I know how I want it so I’m tough on myself. Know that the end result always makes me more than satisfied regarding my music.

Therefore, it is worth that I am tough on myself. I know exactly what I want and how hard I can push myself when it comes to the music. Sometimes so close I only of all things, and I get blocked in it as I do, and it can be about anything. But I’ve learned to deal with this in a good way so it will not be any big problems. I have good self-awareness and I’m not ashamed to tell other people when I become blocked in my senses. Those who know me see all the time that I am trying to in spite of everything. I am a person who needs a lot of time and repeated routines that suit me so therefore structure the I up the a good everyday. A weekday where I in a smart way all the time fix the small things that make everyday life simpler for to be able to constantly do it as I do. Adapt to the outside world as good as possible but also to be able to be yourself as much as I can 😛 

 I have not always liked myself as a person and how I have acted. I have acted wrong many times in pure frustation in that everything I did was wrong all the time. Finally, was there anything that was the only thing that I knew. It was something that became my false sense of security. When it was something that I actually did well so it felt like I was not worthy to be good. Then I acted wrong instead of that it was my false sense of security. This was not a healthy behavior and I drew to me the wrong kind of people. People who were like me, and I felt respected in all the chaos that constantly arose. It was like to be living death and to be totally outside the society in which I feel like a part of nowadays. I had to accept myself at the time and I had no choice. It was a hell to me, for I could not control myself. The road to the person I am today has not been easy but I’m very proud of the person I have become. I think about myself today and I know who I am.
Maybe I can’t explain in words who I am but I can tell you that I think about myself. My new I, I have not had in so many years, so it’s new to me. I know what I want and I know what I can do. I is also for me a mystery which I find very interesting and I love to be me.
Amazing to get to experience it as I do with everything today. I am so grateful that I never gave up. I am grateful for all the people who believe in me.  screenshot_2017-05-20-22-17-57.jpg
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Many Hugs From MinikeGirl  😛 
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