2017, MinikeGirl, Music

So I stopped to feel for several years

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Yesterday I sat and wrote the music and there was 7 new songs so now I’m a little brain tired. Consequently, it must be lovely to my friend coming to visit in a little while. I will sit and write music tonight too for I can’t resist. It is my way to express myself on because I would otherwise have a hard time expressing my feelings. I have strong feelings about most things but I often find it difficult to express them. When I should express them in other ways than through my music, I am often blocked. It means that I have a lot to work with. I am focused on that all the time to keep maintaining the balance that makes my life work. It means that I don’t really allow myself to feel more than necessary. I am a person who can sit and go into a thousand pieces across the different emotions. I can be so happy that I break and I can be so emotional that I go under. Emotions are wonderful but they are also some of my biggest enemies. Through my music I’m myself on the spot and you shall know that I am terrified to unleash the person that can occur if don’t do it as I do. Call it sad or call it smart, but instead of that I’m stuck with myself so I let the music save me. That is what I understand and it is my language. I care a lot about other people and I want other people well. I have good advice and tips to others.

When it comes to me so I have to constantly curb myself. I’m very complicated but at the same time so simple. I am very strong but at the same time so fragile. Without one so I am not the other. I accept that I do not always understand myself and I accept that other people don’t always reach up to me. How can other people understand me if I don’t understand myself always? 
Despite the fact that I am who I am so I am happy. I do what I want to do in my life and I have the world’s finest son. I has taken me so far on my journey It feels absolutely amazing. I am loved by many people and it feels nice  🙂 You have no idea what has preceded in my brain regarding my thoughts and concerns. You have much insight into who I am at the same time, so much the more, as ye do not know about. But I’m always so honest in everything that I can be honest in. At work and among friends on social relationships. I am and always will be someone who is going to understand but I will always have it where you cannot reach and understand. I have many close to me who understand very much when it comes to me. Some of my closest friends view of me and tells me how I am which is amazing. I think different and I am different. Above all, it is my innermost room of feelings different than most people’s. It has been so damaged in many ways that there is a constant process for me to have them on a balanced level. I lived so long jaded and I was totally uncaring. It started with that I drowned in all my feelings. Feelings was annoying and they killed me. So I stopped to feel for several years. Different life events in my life have done that, I closed of my feelings or had a big lot of emotion. It has been either or all of the time and it will take on my forces. I have become a master at turn off and turn on my feelings when it is really needed and when it is about pure survival. Then it’s my instincts taking over completely. In everyday life I am less clear sometimes about what I think and feel. Many people feel that I show someone that I can’t explain, or, on the contrary, I explain something that 
can not display. 
What is most amazing is that many of you are out with me and it is I big grateful for. When you don’t really understand me so don’t forget that I may not understand myself and therefore I can not explain. Continue to listen to my music and read my blog. For every day that goes so we learn a little more about MinikeGirl  🙂 
Take Care Of Each Other 
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2017, MinikeGirl, Music

Get a nice visit from a girl friend of mine tomorrow :)

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Sitting and drinking my morning coffee and thinking of life as usual. Sometimes it can be a little hard to be intelligent and talented as I apparently have become and want to be but at the same time, it is wonderful to just be a little bit of my old self. At the same time as I take it one day at a time so I plan even 20 years ahead. I’m thinking of what songs I should start to immerse myself. If I’m going to clean up here at home a bit today. Get a nice visit from a girl friend of mine tomorrow so it feels really nice when it is a close friend to me.

I have now with the people who I want to be with on my journey through life, which feels wonderful but, above all, safe. It is the very reason why I feel so good as I do today. I do a lot now through my music and I know that it is a big part in that, I feel good. The songs I do now are songs that are very close to me but yet at the same time so far away. It is good to constantly mix up everything piece by piece.
I really need to get more folders to put my songs in and I buy any of these in different colors as you have seen. It is a must that every song should have its own folder hihihihi  😛 
Take Care Of Each Other 
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2017, Lovely Lifestyle, MinikeGirl

There is so much love in me that my soul has begun to spread it out

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I constantly strive to understand myself because it always takes me forward in life in a good way. I am thinking about it most of the time and analyze how I am and how I feel. It gives me great insights into myself and I get answers to many of my concerns. Feel so much humility on this life. I have lived with so much hatred and anxiety through my life which is now replaced with so much love. It still feels unreal that I actually feel as good as I do today. I’m really touched and grateful as I do not thought that this would happen. It makes me want to stop time and always be as confident in myself as I am. My soul is now whole and very powerful. My soul is filled with love. Let me stop time so that I always feel this way. There is so much love in me that my soul has begun to spread it out, the more powerful. It feels magical and natural at the same time. I always want to be here and I will always be there in one way or another. This is the result of a soul that has been healed. My brain don’t really understand this process, and it goes much in the past life experience  and its instincts. So I am and will probably act and be a little ambivalent in much. It’s hard to control how much I want. I am a problem solver so you understand that I have full up with myself. There is a lesson to even be able to see beyond it, which could be a problem for it is how I handle it that makes if I feel good about it or not. Right now it is very good and I am enjoying every second of it  🙂 

I have upgraded myself now and is on a step higher up, which feels absolutely amazing. It is very interesting and therefore, I stop the time for that I can. For that I am worthy to feel this way and I want to feel this way. Among the finest that can be given to me is time never forget it. I don’t know really so I know I will in time. This is what I have learned and that is the way I’m thinking. Therefore do I stop the time. Exciting to come to different insights that I all the time do. It is magical to walk on my way. 

Today I have a real light scattering day, and the day of rest. It makes good for the soul. Nice Weekend all my lovely listeners and readers  🙂 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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2017, MinikeGirl, Music

My senses and my soul feel good

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It feels great now when I received the order on so many of my songs. I can now start to put some focus on other songs that I have at the time. I have been in a Write- Bubble is now quite a while and now I’ve got a good structure in everything. As much as I want to do and it is so amazing.

The more songs I write the more I learn about myself. It gets me all the time to understand myself and my way of thinking. I get more and more insight into why I live in the structure that I built up. 
Today I work a lot with my music, so it’s soon time to sleep here  😛 . I want to be able to work tomorrow also at the same time that I also should take it easy tomorrow.
I am strong and know where I am on the road and it is a great feeling. 
My driving force is so strong now and my senses and my soul feel good.
 
Take Care Of Each Other 
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2017, MinikeGirl, Music

You are amazing all of you and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :)

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As it is raining now constant here in Sweden so I try to make the best of the day. It’s like I have all the tempest in my brain right now. It gets worse, the low power and sleep it do nothing so it is just a hassle. Will be so lovely when the weather stabilized again and the rain has fallen. I know that it will stay on for a while so it is just to accept the situation  🙂 

A day like this so I slow down my speed sharply and saves on the energy that I have. I am almost always a lot of things about the days and today so I will almost not have to do anything. It is useful to have these days and I feel fast a little prisoner in my own body right when you have the time but not the strength. The desire to do lot of things and that the strength is not enough. The brain can’t keep up. This sounds very sad, it is unfortunately, so many of us have it. I know it’s just temporary so I can deal with this in a healthy way.
I have very much work now with my blog in the future it will be so exciting. I like it when it happens stuff and is very excited regarding everything. New things means big a lot of work from my side as I begin to prepare for it. The time before Christmas is saved  😛 

I will have our hands full with new music and with my blog. A thousand thanks to all of you who read my blog and listen to my music. You are amazing all of you and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH : 

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2017, MinikeGirl, Music

I have a painting in my office at this lady and I was wondering if anyone knows who it is ?

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I have a painting in my study at this lady and I was wondering if anyone knows who it is ? I’m not so good on the pictures but curious as can be  😛 

In a little while so I’ll go on a meeting which will be exciting. Then I will write the music. It is of course a bit stressful to make as I do then I might change a verse or chorus at the last moment. But it will be good and I’m the one who sets the schedule for everything. It has its advantages so long as I reminds me that it is no disaster if my schedule gets changed and a bit offset.

It goes really good to be a dog sitter but don’t think I got to have my bed alone. Lovely dog that knows what he wants  😛 He wanted to sleep in my son’s room, for he likes my son but because it is important that my son gets his bed so slept the dog with me.

Yesterday I received these lovely flowers and they fit really good in our kitchen : 

 

Hope you all have a pleasant day  🙂 

 

Take Care Of Each Other 

 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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