Today is both my son and I sick, Hope that it will be a better day tomorrow. We shall soon make supper and then to rest. I have been shopping food today in the morning so it feels good to have gotten it. I don’t have to go tomorrow but can collect a bit of energy here at home. 

I have not been drinking coffee today either and then I feel worse and feel of my chronic fatigue much more. Think it is better to charge the brewer to start the day well tomorrow. It is better to wait for yourself and give the morning the day a new chance.

Distance and integrity …..
Emotions and relationships …..
Everything and nothing …..
Nothing and yet everything …..
Unfocused and still focus …..
I am everything and yet nothing ….. 
I am nothing but yet everything …..
I am complicated and yet so simple ….. 
I am here but absent …..
I am the one who you want to be and I do exactly what you dream about doing …..
I’ll be your best friend and also your enemy …..
Today it is a way and tomorrow is it in a different way ……
I am proud of the person I have become and I am proud of what I have created …..

I feel that I have to do a little reboot again and go through some things that I thought about last time. I have thought of much that has happened in individual situations regarding how much I invite and allow other people to be involved in it as I do. When you let other people become involved in what you do and what you think so it is also a risk that they will think and think about lots, even though they might not actually want it. I have many plans and most of it is decided how it will be in the future. When I was younger so I dreamed that all my friends would live in a single large house so that you always had close to each other. I wanted to we would all be at each other’s journeys through life. I had never really understood that I would end up in these situations. I grew up with that you are not talking about money and business with people who are not involved. Have learned through life that it is important to surround myself with strong individuals. 

My life has always been about I have been and am forced to constantly defend myself against what others think. The more I tell about myself the more trying other people to correct me that there would be something wrong with me. To live with all this stress all the time has become my everyday life. I can deal with it in a completely different way than in the past. I know that the problem is not with me but with those who point out things. There is a big flaw in that whole time complaining about other people without being able to give constructive criticism. 

Many people seem to live just to question other people all the time. I have always known that I have drawn to me these people, for some strange reason. Therefore, I decided a long time ago to stop to tell other people about what I thought and thought about it related to my future goals. Those who are my closest friends knows the most about me. In recent years, I have noticed clearly that it has become unnecessary problems regarding my music making and my blog. It takes I on me completely. I have not followed what I have learned. I have opened my business and music making world for my closest friends and I have invited them on my journey. We have shared thoughts and concerns about everything. I have my goals and my dreams regarding my blog and my music. It is here that life is not just about my blog and my music, but it relates with my everyday life. My blog and my music is something that I have created and that is where I am free and where I process my feelings. 

In recent years, I’ve noticed that it has started to become hard in a few of my friends relationships. The relationships where the friendship is the best is in the relationships where the friends also are creative and are struggling with their business. We can talk on a completely different plane than what I and my other friends can. We become more and more colleagues in any way and we understand each other. We are driven and we strive forward all the time. With the friends, I will now continue to talk business with. My other friends, I will not let they take part in right everything related to my business. 

This is good for all relations and also for my business and my creativity. I am the last person who thought my life would be this good as it has become. It is totally amazing and I’ll take me forward all the time.It is time to distinguish between private life and business. It is more important to keep the friendship between me and my friends do not keep on with the creativity and business on my level. All my friends are just as valuable for me so that is why I made this decision. I will continue to express myself through my blog and my music. I will start taking stuff relating to my business with larger companies where no feelings are involved. I will not take it with my parents and with my closest friends. It is important to create distance where and when it is needed. This is huge for me everything and sometimes I just want to take my blog and my music and hide me in a secluded mature grotto. But I love to do my music and blogging. I need this no matter what level I end up at. I will always to make music and blogging. Sometimes it is more intense and sometimes it is quieter. It is I who determines the pace of as it should be and I know how I want it.

Take Care Of Each Other

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

I have deliberately chosen to surround myself with strong people. Friends who are honest and say what they think. They stand on themselves and are honest even though we think different. I get very stressed out by the break and change my goals and to also walk away from something that feels good in my thoughts. I have learned that sometimes it is worth to change my principles for it may actually be better. I am so happy with how my life is today then I live in my dream, I have the great principles which means that I will be able to continue to live as I do. I have also learned that I feel much better now when I follow my set goals. Everything is a balancing act. Today I changed a bit on a set goal and it was stressful in the beginning but it will be good so I am confident with my decision. It is I who decide in the end about how and what I should do, but we are very grateful to have good friends who say what they think. They expand my perspective and they lift me up when I go into my strong-willed in what I should do. They reinforce the things I already have thought about and then I have easier to  make my decision.

For me it is very important that it should feel right in my decision and that I should feel good. It is wonderful to be able to be as creative as I am, but it is also very stressful because I want so very much. Therefore, everything must happen on my terms and I have a plan for everything that I do. Right now I am working on the songs that for me are a very close and sensitive. They tear up deep wounds and I are a bit extra fragile right now. I am proud of myself that I took this step in to record my songs on stuff that hurts. It is the best way for me to process things that are heavy for the brain. You will understand a lot of what I sing about when I release my songs. You will also hear songs from me in the future as you will not understand. I’ll try to explain more for those of you who will be genuinely interested in what it’s all about. You are always welcome to ask me. 

I have very many pages and the one does not preclude the other and the one is nothing without the other. Everything hangs together and you will get to hear everything. I am secure in what I’m doing. 

Thanks for your support  on my musical journey  🙂 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

Today is a lovely day for it feels like spring is in the air, and the sun is shining. The snow is melting, and I have seen many small birds. Keeps on cleaning and sorting a bit here at home. Think it’s amazing that it’s not so far to the moments when it is possible to sit outside and drink the morning coffee  🙂 

You know, everybody that I love coffee and even tastier in the sun. 

I love to be in the sun and often sit and write music and just take it easy. Then I think that it is really fun to play soccer with my son outside in the summer. I myself have played football when I was younger and I think it is extra fun to play with my son. He thinks it’s fun to have a mum who play football with him. I tend to get big very sore after the first fotballs days that we have been out. 

Looking forward to the summer when my son and I keeps on and plan what we are going to do. Both want to be in the sun so clear and have a cozy summer.We are not very picky, but likes to plan. I have worked in the past summers so this will be a free summer with my son. Something that we both think will be amazing. 

What are you going to do in the summer have you begun to plan something ?

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl  😛