Smart not to awaken the demons inside of me :)

The week that has been was a little different than previous weeks. This is nothing that will not be corrected. I have been sleeping really good tonight and it is a new day today. I am accustomed to, it can happen things that make the plans changed. That said, is there anyone who can restructure their plans so it is me. 

I am very experienced and I have a lot of experience of life. I know people in all different categories. I work with the most people and I respect other people’s differences. It is exciting that we are different because we can learn so much about each other if we just learn to respect each other. Be a good role model for our children. Support each other when it happens like that that may not happen and it happens anyway. It is thanks to all the support that I have received now last week in a few things that get me to be quiet. When the other adults and the authorities go in and take it over to be corrected and allows me to work with myself. When it happens the kind of thing that starts me properly and raises the devil in me so it is exactly as it should go to. I get my time to work with myself to restrain myself and I get good distance to the different event that can occur. I have been quiet for so many years now and it is smart not to awaken the demons inside of me.

I am therefore very grateful for how the last situation is handled. I myself can take care of it is most important to me. Many know how I am and what I can do and that’s lucky that I know it myself. Despite the fact that life was as it was and I live in the situation as I do today, I’ve learned so much. I lived with people who were very different in their personalities. I lived with those who actually taught me to stand up for every member of the family when anything happens. I have learned so many invisible rules, and I have learned so much of who I lived with. Everything is on the good and evil that means that I can act in many different ways. I know what works and what does not. Why it feels so good now when I can simply choose to have a good weekend  🙂 

Take Care Of Each Other

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To break of a bit from the usual hihi  :-) 

The weekend could not have come at a better time. I feel that there has been a lot now on the latest. I have spent a lot and worked and I have also started to train a bit in a quiet tempo.So there is always something happening. You know, when you go and waiting to even favorite series to come with a new season, and it does. I usually check out the intense direct when a new series comes with new season. Now in the past so have many series that I been waiting for come out with new seasons. Thought I should check on any this weekend  😛 

It has made it difficult to start check on any series is that I work daily with what I love to do. On the way, so it is not so big contrast at work to check on the film. It is important to schedule the add now for me that I will see some series in the weekend. To break of a bit from the usual hihi  🙂 

I need to listen to myself because it is I who is the BOSS ! 

Have the best my lovely listeners and readers  🙂 

Take Care Of Each Other 

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I will always have my Spiritual Tears but my soul can rest today and I can sleep at nights!

 

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People are interesting and even though I am good at the different behavior and psychology so I can still be surprised. Today I have so much experience of life and I see the world in a completely different way than what I did when I was younger. I handle situations in a completely different way than what I did when I was younger. When I was younger so went everything out on that all the time to try to escape from myself, which not resulted in the good result for the moment. It was an interesting behavior that I had on a way because it was destructive but still functioning. I strove even then, after the life I have today. I never gave up but I continued always to fight forward no matter what happened. There are so many years that I have lived when I have, according to me, stuck in me at the same time as I all the time have been developed. I was happy when I was younger and I was very protected by the outside world. I could be happy in, not to do anything but just exist. I had my family and my grandmother and grandfather within easy reach every day. It was amazing to grow up like I did. I had close to family and friends. I was surrounded by the wonderful nature, the forest and all of the farm animals. A dog and cats and all the cows. Sometimes, we even had pigs. My childhood friends and I had big fun over the years. There is so much more to tell here but it takes me and tells me another time. My childhood was really good. 

Life is life things happen that we can’t do anything about. It happens for all of us. After having lived in my security so forced even I to experience death and to slowly but surely start to lose my wall of my inner security. Had I known what I know today, had I lived differently, which neither had been good for I am happy today. When you lose people that you love over everything else so it will be chaos in your head of how prepared that you may be. I didn’t want to be the one who I was anymore and I didn’t want to be there all the time expected of me. It was expected of me that I would be like all the others. It was all the time all of these comparisons, in that she and he were so good and talented. I would curb my emotions instead of accepting that they were there. Feelings I have always had a lot of, and it has always felt like my emotional levels never really fit in with the outside world. At the same time that I began to lose my inner wall as I lost my grandfather when he died. Everything was torn and my happiness disappeared. 

This was the beginning of my quest in trying to escape from myself, and no one noticed it really in the beginning and it took many years before I really got to unleash my inner demons. First it was the grief after my grandfather who I am today struggling to handle. I shed tears as I write this and it feels good for today, it is not sadness that I feel without it is something nice because I am spiritual and I have strong abilities. Everything ripped away from me and felt that it disappeared, just changed form. The void within me is no longer available. 

I don’t go anywhere at funerals and I’d rather go not to the near relatives of the deceased graves. It is not my way to mourn, or to look at everything when it comes to death. For me, death is a transition and not permanent. I honor those who have died on my way. Everyone I know who has died I think, statistically, every other day, and I do so from the day they have died. I will do so until I die. I’m not just thinking of them, but I see and hear and talk with the many who have died. For me, it becomes therefore very strange to go at funerals and cemeteries. I respect all who find comfort in visiting their loved ones in cemeteries. We all need to get grieve and handle death in the way that works for us. Before I learned to control my abilities so it was chaos when I visited a church and cemetery. There were spirits everywhere who wanted to talk with me and accompany me home. It ended up that I had like two worlds in one world. I was born in the medial and I are a link between life and death. Today I have control of my abilities and none of the worlds takes over the other. 

In spite of my strong abilities and my strong mediumship I am human with many emotions. So, even though I know how it is I will be heartbroken when someone dies. For it is then that all of my emotions explode in detail and it is then that the worlds between life and death opens. There is so much in circulation, and I feel everything so strongly. I get exhausted because I feel everyone’s sorrow and my own. I feel everyone’s sadness so strong in the church after a funeral that it takes a long time for me to collect myself. I feel the energy of the person who died. 

I am happy today and I am proud of the person I have become. The person that I lost when I was younger and wanted to be. The person who I escaped from and the person that I have evolved to be today.

I will always have my Spiritual Tears but my soul can rest today and I can sleep at nights : 

Never Gives Up ! 

Take Care Of Each Other 

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Not the most fun to eat porridge :)

I have made my own porridge so that it will be a bit more fun and healthier, and with more colors in.

It is, perhaps, not the most fun to eat porridge but it is very useful and the body feel good to eat healthy. I have been on a long walk today which feels wonderful. It’s not a long walk as I am usually the route that I went today because my walks tend to be much longer. When I have not gone walking in a while so it was like a long walk. So now it will be fun to see  some day soon how it goes when I work out on my exercise machine  😛 

Hope you all have a good day  

Take Care Of Each Other 

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They themselves had need to be nasty

At the same time as it goes a lot of energy right now so I have time to gather new energy in a good way. I feel that it has become much better with the whole everyday life, then I started to work from home. When I am focusing me on what works altogether. It has been and felt like an eternal struggle so I had to do something, and it has been great. I can proudly say that I have achieved what I have strived for. I have a new goal to chase and I’ve become stronger in many ways. I am the one who I was before within me but I have developed and I have renewed myself. I got tired of constantly being questioned if I managed to live in a society and a system which is generally adapted in general for people to fit in. What happened was that I started a private society and a world where I surround myself with people who think and more who I am. We are also available, and even though society forget it, so do we. I didn’t like to be mistreated when I was already in a vulnerable situation. I got tired of meeting people that did not understand and where I had to try to get them to understand. Those who are not doing his work and then questioned me because they themselves are not doing work. When a single sought the extra security in everyday life. When was sick and still got questioned. I felt that it was time to stop talking about my life to these cold-hearted people. The whole time I thought that my journey would be much better. Today, everything is better because I have chosen people who I don’t respect me. Those who knew so much better, and which is still standing in the same spot and stomping. Those who refused to listen when I was in a vulnerable situation. They themselves had need to be nasty.

The people who made the choice to not listen and to make things much worse for me when I told them my story, I don’t do something about it. They are sad and tragic people who press down and which also exploits its position of power. What I do know so many work do not remain on their positions of power by those who treated me badly. I have a different kind of power and it is that I am liked by many people. It happens after a meeting where I have been mistreated is that you did wrong is not go out from the meeting as a winner. I may be upset and angry but I am here to stay. There is nothing that you can do about it. Your subject who worked under you was with you and lied about your behavior. Said you had not said what you had said. We all know the 3 who sat in the meeting what was said. We know all of them that you only received support from your colleague, because you were her manager at the time. Because I am a girl who goes on so I can live with what happened. 

There are many thoughts as I walk around and think about right now and that is why I clear out a little bit here on the blog. It feels nice to be able to do a final cleanup of what I have just written about. For after a few years when it has become so stupid in that meeting so I had to redress. I got very good contact with a person who understood my situation. Who took the time to try to do the best for my son and me. It is what  she and her whole staff did and still doing is an absolutely fantastic work, and I feel confident. They are real everyday heroes. So after everything that happened in the past so have these people really given me new hope for the future. I got the time that I needed and there was no weirdness and life is good. Everyday life has become very good and I am not asking for too much. We people have different periods in life where we need that little extra. Despite previous bad experiences of asking for that little extra to get a better life so I made it for my son’s sake. That is what a good parent does.  

I have written and thanked the headmaster at my son’s school and the people who work there know that I am so grateful to them for their work at the school every day. I say what I think and whether it is good or bad, it spreads my words faster than the wind. Not only through internet but due to the lovely crow  😈 

My words spread also in my music, and soon so will the new music from me. You may hold out a bit to  😛 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Think it was a perfect moderate portion :)

Today I slept a little longer in the morning when I got off my son to his school. It is needed sometimes and I decide for myself my hours so it works out good to do so. I tend to usually be up very early on the work because I like to get started as early as possible. 

Feels wonderful with the a new week especially now when it’s better weather out there and I have come a long way with all of my work, both in terms of the music and with my blog.

Yesterday evening, I made a big big burger that tasted very good. There is a big difference in the size of the burgers now-a-days. I like the greatest and my son likes the between the big. So they in the picture here is a middle version and a bigger version.  

Here is the picture of how my plate was with the big hamburger. Think it was a perfect moderate portion when I wanted to have a little bit of everything.

Now shall I take and do a little food here it’s time again  😛 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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