I am not sick and poor but to always try to see what roads I can take for it to be better. If it can get better, and I will do what I can to achieve a better balance. You know before that I have errors on my thyroid and that it causes problems for me in my everyday life. So when my usual hormone period, pull the trigger, so will I be affected very negatively. It means that now I have evaluated the past 2 years regarding my health. Everything regarding my hormones have escalated and become worse every time. I understand that there is nothing that’s going to be easier then it has become so much worse in 2 years. So I have decided that I should start taking medications for it here so I don’t have to feel that it is taking over my life as it has started to do. I want to be able to work and do what I have planned, and then I want to work better. I have been waiting for that I wanted to see if it would go of its own accord and it did not. I am also afraid to add medications because I have become sensitive. I get big drowsy at one-half aspirins  🙂 . Why can’t I be impulsive in this situation but have been forced to evaluate my own behavior now during these 2 years. But I’m proud of myself that finally have been able to make this decision. I am proud of myself that despite this problem and my other problem though have been able to work that I have done. Now I feel so secure in it that I do and I do not want to risk that I get worse and start to cope with less of it may be possible to get a little better balance on the whole.

I succeed, of course, make my decision now on a Friday so clearly but I can already see that the year 2018 will be better. I’m going to get even more balance in everything. Goes as I hope, so will I be able to work more and avoid having to look in the almanac all the time to try calculate when I am most whole and balanced. 

Becomes a little bulkier when I’m sick and I’m a little clumpsy in ordinary cases. There is always something happening. Yesterday I did real good food but I burned myself on the oven as it ached for over an hour. It burned holes in the skin with it felt. Then I sit down son and watch movie and I should say something just in my inhalation so it collides in any way. It felt like putting in the neck but it is not. It was just fishy, but I was forced to think quickly and to breathe I must, after all, so I breathed through my nose a little while. It is the absolute nothing serious but it was uncomfortable. I used to practice my breathing when I sing a lot. It is also important to breathe correctly when working to not have a panic attack. Therefore, it is good to start the day with singing and breathing right for then you get a good start on the day. It starts not with hyperventilerar because you are stressed and going to work. I will on myself sometimes that I’m not breathing right and then I get right to it. Regardless of whether you have stressrelated diseases or not, it is important to think of the breathing. It feels really good that I have left the good food from last night that I can eat soon  😛 

Yesterday I wrote a clear 3 of my new songs and today I will take and put me with additional songs that are on the way. I have to do there is one thing that is for sure.

So right now I’m very focused on getting my new music done. I feel very good when I’m in these music write-periods  🙂 

Hope you have a good day  🙂 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

Now I get to calm me a bit I wrote just now finished 3 pieces of my new songs. It feels great but I must stop myself, for I will be a bit like a manic runaway horse. It feels fantastic to be creative but it must not take over too much and I can really get stuck. So now, it was great to take a little break here. I wrote earlier that I’m not really healthy so it is especially important to rest also. I easily fall in ecstasy and get the rush of joy when I’m in my creative bubble. It is how lovely that time to finally be so strong that I can process everything that happened. Even though it is very heavy memories of the traumatic events so I give myself this. It feels wonderful when I feel that it lightens more and more from my soul. I go into depth with everything just in the tempo as I feel that I have mastered and are capable of. Certainly it is painful and it is also a way for me to take me on. I would rather see it disappear away from me in a way where I decide. I am very self-conscious and strong. I know that it will take time. I know that it is worth to transform what is within me through my music. 

It is a major project which I am doing now with my music, which feels absolutely amazing. So I put a lot of time on the music and it is more time than I usually do. I am determined to do it as I have thought, and now I see the actually finish line. It probably depends on the fact that I have work ready 3 song lyrics today  😛 

I’m also going to get much better internet and I really need to get a better computer. Have thought that I’ll make sure to arrange this with the new computer when my better internet begins. I want to be able to manage everything from home when needed and not have to borrow other people’s computers. I mean I can get an idea of something in the middle of the night and that is why I want to have everything at home.

Take Care Of Each Other

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

Good morning I am sitting and trying to wake up here is not really healthy today, I feel. It may be a quiet day here today I’ll be working from home. Waiting for my coffee to be ready and also a seafoodpie that I heat in the oven. I eat quite a lot sometimes for breakfast as you read about sometimes and as seen on the picture. Likes to eat a lot of food when I can and a day like this, I need to start the day with a bit of give sufficient breakfast.

Yesterday I worked with the music and start to work on it that is next on the tour now. It will be really interesting to see when I can get the order of the then the. Some of the songs that I do are easier to do than the other songs. The one that I need to do now is a bit of trickier, I think, but once I get a good focus so it will be good.

Right now, it is most tricky when I’m not woken up here, really, haha  😛 

The best part is that I have finished up my pie now, and have a few ounces of coffee left so my day starts soon a little more awake, I can promise  😛 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs MinikeGirl 

Sit and work with the computer today and it runs great. I’m thinking often about how http://www.google.se think. Sometimes, so everything you do online, which is good and sometimes it disappears for a part. So I try all the time to be friend with http://www.google.se but it is quite difficult in many situations. Have fought now since 2012 with google.se so it is nothing new just  🙂 

I think it is very interesting to see what works and what does not. I see that it works. But the network is great so I’ll have to content myself with being the little professor, as I am about this.

I cant wait until my new faster and much more powerful Internet that I have ordered will. Then I will be able to work much more efficiently than I do today. Today I am limited, and this is really frustrating but now I know in all cases that there will be better everything. So I am excited that you understand. I love blogging, and it is important that I am not limited in what I’m doing. When I am not here so I’m doing my music and it is 2 worlds that I love to be in.

Right now so is it very much work for me regarding my music and I work in a fairly high tempo. It is really fun and it goes according to my planning. I get up early every morning even though it is the weekend and works with both the music and my blog. I’m trying to get a good sleep every night and maintain my routines.

Tomorrow I’ll go and see if my medications have arrived, or if I need to call my doctor. Last few months have gone by so fast and I honestly have totally forgotten to renew my prescription. I was out in good time and called my doctor about my medications but then he said that I had already printed so it was just a download. Then I downloaded but now I don’t know if there are take-out or not. I have in recent months begun to make use of a small dosett because I have problems with my memory especially when I have that much around. A dosett is really to recommend for then you will see clearly if you have taken your medicine or not every day. 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl